Thursday, July 24, 2008

do you mean it? [EDITED]

[consistency]

people have a lot of trouble- nowait- problems with that concept.

you're allowed to change your mind about wanting fries with that, but not about throwing away $300 worth of plane tickets because "i changed my mind" and the equivocal "i didn't mean it, or i don't mean it any more." More precisely, "i never said anything that wasn't emotionally valid at the time." [real quote, corrected]

oh, great murder defense, there Elise.

you get to change your mind about what today's wardrobe is going to be, not about how much you care about someone after making all kinds of promises. you don't get to ignore them, then make them tiny because you fucked something up on your end and can't own up to it.

i've learned to find out what people are saying when they're not talking, or what they're saying underneath their false talk. underneath their lies and their body language. i see so much you will never even consider.

when you lie, cheat, steal, backstab, redirect, revise, "forget" and all those other things you so-called "normal" people do all day, every day, all week, every week of the month, all the months of the year [, he sees it].

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

ASHAMED to be an "American," part one

i want to be dead.
dead dead dead.
kill me kill me kill me.

is that statement going to get me more home invasions and forced medication by ignorant motherfuckers called "the law" and "people who care?"
You stupid bastards....

if i had the strength (and money), i would start a legal battle against 201, 302, and 304. Fuck, i don't even know what "law" these sections come from. They are designed to remove your civil rights. How is that a just law?

Our constitution is a pile of lies because it's been amended to uselessness and laws have been created to obfuscate, block and side-step it. The pursuit of life, LIBERTY and HAPPINESS. FUCKING BULLSHIT.

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Wednesday, June 04, 2008

this IS the dystopia

Those of you waiting for the apocalypse or for dystopia to come knocking on your door are wearing peril-sensitive sunglasses; this IS the apocalypse. It's happening now. Every day. Every moment of each day.

We live in a "nation" divided almost in half:
  • those that are intolerant racists/sexists/etc. and those who pretend not to be.
  • people who do things for themselves only and those who pretend to care about others.
  • them that never follow through on promises and them that come up with excuses not to.
  • sociopaths that wear masks of normality and sociopaths becoming psychopaths.
We're coming towards a new "presidential voting" time where the ruling "party" that's been destroying family values (while talking about conserving them) are likely to remain in power during the next round because the "party" opposing them have chosen a woman and a non-white as their potential candidates. It almost seems designed to leave the sociopathic republic in power while being able to say "See!! SEE!!?? They're sexist racists!! How dare they do this to OUR country!"

It isn't "our country." This "country" belongs to corporations. This country belongs to the intellectually, emotionally and socially ignorant and inept. This country belongs to the complacent, the old, the cruel, the wealthy and the indifferent. This country is slowly passing on ownership to the children it has manufactured to be JUST LIKE THEIR PREDECESSORS!

This isn't even a country at war with itself. It's not fighting itself. It habitually behaves as its told and acts with response to stimuli. There's no revolution, no civil war, no dissent.

In this "country," people who know you the least are telling you who you are. People who know themselves the least are plugging their ears and burying their heads when they act with selfishness and anti-social behavior. In this "country," this collection of cranky and bitter sibling countries (wrongly referred to as "states"), we citizens are expected to not think. We're expected to not demand protection of our "rights" as they've been defined by those who withhold them.

We're not allowed to show the slightest bit of honest emotion.

We are expected to never get angry, regardless of the cause and reason.

This is the way the world ends, kids. Not with nook-yoo-lar bombs. The world ends, bit by bit, second by second, day by day as people remain complacent, learning how to have no rights and no property by decades of attrition. The world ends generation by generation as the elderly pass on their hate of the young and demand the same social foolishness that made them miserable and hateful.

This is the world ending, quietly, under the weight of your finger tips as you rant uselessly on a blog, under the weight of your ass as you watch television and are told what to think, under the weight of your complacent ignorance which terrorizes the few who think, feel and make active decisions.

This is YOUR world and you've made out of it what you have by doing NOTHING progressive or even ACTIVE.

As your world disintegrates under the weight of your selfishness, MY world is being retroactively aborted while shouting "Autism Awareness!" on billboards and bumper stickers. MY world is never to be. My world never had a chance and will never have a hope. MY world is the detritus that you leave behind for me and my mutant peers of unwealthy, disabled (by you), former middle-class losers that you have beaten and abused with your "this is just the way it is" and your "a lawyer costs [this] much in order to try fighting to protect your [god/state/federal] given rights."

Bend down, fall to your knees and pray to your gods that you may continue to reap all that you and your parents have sown until the day you die. Pray that you can hold on to the benefits of your complacency before those benefits are forgotten and history is rewritten by the corporate warriors, soldiers of legal fortune and mercenaries who's services can be retained for the right fees.

Pray that you don't live long enough to fight the battles my kind have already lost (winning lip service is an anti-victory). Pray that you die before you are held accountable by those who rewrite the rewritten history, looking to put blame anywhere but on the shoulders of the giants who dominate this corporate monster known as "The United States of America." Pray that you die before there is no more nation, or, gods forbid, blood is actually spilt en mass, by enough thousands of organized individuals for the term "civil war" to be suggested (and then tossed aside as the federal military fires upon the citizens which pay it to build weapons and provide it thrones to rule from).

Pray that you never have to live a life where the body is forced to live on after the will to live has been long since murdered.

Oh, you do that already. Those people are called the ignorant elderly and they entertain themselves by abusing disabled people.

THIS is the apocalypse. YOUR apocalyse. No zombies. No massive dollopse of ketchup. No invasions from aliens (terrestrial or non). Rarely a bomb or a bullet fired on "home soil..." it's such a damn shame letdown of an apocalypse, isn't it?

Damn you for what you've made of my world that never will be and my life that never was meant to be.

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Saturday, May 31, 2008

(excerpt) flickr: Racist and Homophobic, or Scamming?

UPDATE: this story has had good reading numbers at NowPublic. 600+ reads since posting it.

... i've been witness to paying flickr members abandoning their paid accounts to move on to other photo sharing communities after their complaints of harassment ... went 100% unhandled... i've a contact on flickr who was forced to move to a new account ... flickr staff has marked his account NIPSA. ...This contact ... had nothing offensive in public view... He was blocked, by my estimation, because he is gay and sometimes does photo shoots that involve men in situations of love and lust, trust and fear; the artistic expression of age old stories of the human condition. ...

... Why is a gay man's artistic expression censored? Is it because some insecure flickr staff member is uncomfortable seeing photos of two men expressing emotions via skin to skin contact? ...

Homophobia is racism just as much as the hate or discrimination of persons with different national origin or skin color is racism. ...

Now, a new censoring technique has been established: groups have had their administration settings modified ... without warning the group administrators ... members who's photostreams have been censored ... cannot add their images to a group. The only way this can be changed is if the group changes their settings to allow "restricted" content. ... the group is then AUTOMATICALLY changed to an 18+ group and is made invisible to the public.

This has directly affected me in a most offensive manner: i am no longer able to share my personal self documentation of my autism research with other members of flickr who have groups dedicated to ausitm and Asperger's Syndrome. These are groups of autistic persons and parents of autistic children. Many of my contacts and on-line associates/friends began contact with me because of my open sharing of my autistic life on flickr and the fact that they felt they had gained some new understanding that would help them with their children.

... The word "homophobia" carries a meaning and a weight. ... flickr is discriminating against me based on neuroracism. They are also negatively affecting the groups which have members who expressed appreciation for my contributions. ...

... i started hearing from contacts and friends about how their other contacts and friends have experienced similar discrimination (account blockage or deletion). Many members are edgy and afraid that some harmless upload will get their account deleted.

... Is this a scam? Is flickr crippling accounts just to push members into paying for another, new "pro" account subscription? That would be highly illegal. ...

read the whole thing here

references

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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

mass blocking of flickr staff invited

i have blocked staff on flickr. staff Michelle seems to be gone. maybe she quit. maybe she was fired for embarrassing flicker and/or Yahoo.

i invite everyone to block every staff member who ever harassed you.

so far, i have blocked:

Stewart
caterina
heather
George

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Saturday, October 27, 2007

flicked off by flickr staff

"Your account has been reviewed as unsafe and NIPSA by Flickr staff."
Tell me what's unsafe about it. The account they deleted was reviewed by flicker staff and marked as safe about a couple of days before they deleted it.

Latest attempts at checking that i'm moderating my content:
  • "Changed safety level on 0 photos. (Operation failed for 17 photos, which have been moderated by Flickr staff and cannot be changed.)"
  • "Changed content type on 0 photos. (Operation failed for 1 photo, which has been moderated by Flickr staff and cannot be changed.)"
  • "You are unable to share this content. Sorry, you can't send "restricted" content. Go back to "how mcdonald's sees your children"
Self moderation was fine before in my original account, which was supposedly what awarded me the "SAFE" marking.

Here's the dealie:

If you have a LINK or know the exact URL to my account (http://www.flickr.com/photos/14467890@N02/) you can see my stuff. If you go to flickr and check out the site, view people, search photos, search people, search for me or my photos, you don't get squat. i'm invisible unless you specifically go to my photostream via direct URL.

So, sum of all parts is: censorship. They don't want the public to see my stuff because they acted against Stewart Butterfield's proclaimed "err on the side of caution," deleted my content without investigation or communication, (an act which i announced in my next image, using the flickr staff email as proof, which they then removed), and were embarassed.

This isn't about what's good for the community. It's about what flickr staff feels is good for them; the way the flickr users and the outside world perceives them. i'm a danger to no one except flickr staff's egos and public image.

They are apparently not fans of "let the truth speak for itself."

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Wednesday, October 03, 2007

dave sewell admits to being the cause of my second flickr deletion

just so it's out front where everyone can see it, here are dave sewell's postings where he is taunting me about the deletion of my second dysamoria account on flickr, which was not breaking any rules (again):

sewell's first post, taunting his power to ruin people's flickr fun, which he deleted (so he thought), was this:
I think the statement should be:
"If this bothers you as much as it bothers s me seek serious psychiatric help.
BTW What happened to the [deleted] Dysamoria Flickr account?
Posted by AngelFishSolo to Dysamoria at 5:14 AM, October 02, 2007
His second and more obvious is this one, which he has not yet deleted but is saved for posterity just in case he repeats his "history rewriting" behavior that we've all seen enough of:
What happened to your new "[deleted] Dysamoria" Flicker account. It looks like it's been deleted as well. What a shame.
Posted by AngelFishSolo to Dysamoria at 12:14 PM, October 02, 2007

i need say no more

Update: from the horse's mouth:

AngelFishSolo said...

cavacini Jace. I here by admit with pride to being the cause of your 2nd and hopefully 3rd Flickr account deletion.

Society has rules but as you seen to believe they are beneath you, (as they are created by Sociopaths or people like Sociopaths) you constantly break the ones that do not fit into your version of reality. Thank god there are not that many people like you.

Rule breaking has consequences and the more rules you break the more you have to pay the cost in the end

5:52 AM, October 03, 2007


There it is, posted to my blog comments area. Note his repeated use of my own language in an attempt to "i know you are but what am i?" Note also his inability to proofread his own material, still.

Reported to flickr... do you know what they will do? i'll give you two options:

1. Delete my account

2. Nothing at all

Rule breaking has consequences, he says... i'm sure he's fully aware of the stupidity of saying that.

Intimidation and harassment are the rules that dave broke when flickr deleted me the first time. Intimidation and harassment are the rules that dave broke when flickr deleted me the second time. Intimidation, harassment, impersonation and threats are the rules he was breaking before and during his extension of his hate crusade to me. Intimidation, threats and harassment is what he's doing right now. And flickr... they are all too happy to enable him and break their own rules right along with him.

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Tuesday, October 02, 2007

flickr staff continue their abuse of power

i created a THIRD account at flickr. i posted the open letter to Stewart Butterfield, deleting the names of people mentioned before posting it so that it would not be violating anyone's privacy.

There was one response. While i was correcting this person's memory of the original situation of me being deleted (he did say, forgive me if i'm wrong but), attempting to post my polite correction lead me to "bad link."

The entire posting was deleted. It lasted about ten minutes. It had no profanity, no rule breaking, no names of people, etc. It was not addressed to staff. It was addressed to the general manager. i don't think the general manager deleted it.

i went looking for my posting in someone else's "OT Open Letter" thread... it too was deleted. Not the thread, just my postings. In fact, all of my forum postings are gone.

i attempted to post again and was informed that i am not allowed to post in the forums.

It doesn't get any more obvious than this, folks.

Flickr staff, you just proved me right. Thank you.


By the way, that's Staff Michelle and Staff Heather, so far. i've seen Heather's arrogance in the forums before, directed at other people. Same with Staff George. My opinion is shared with many others. Do some Google searches. i did, just to see if it was just me who felt like the staff were arrogant and abusive power mongers. One last opinion for you: don't put much stock into the postings by a "Dr. Keats" member of flickr. He's not staff but he "polices" the forums like he thinks he is. He is, in my opinion, a troll. His postings are aggressive and rude. He also seems to like to get there first.

Yes, flickr, you have cast one too many stones from your glass house.


UPDATE:
i posted my "flickr hates me" image on my currently not yet deleted account. there were 14 views by the time i got done editing the text and tags. AND... it was marked as private. i undid that, for the moment.
great job, kids. NEXT!

i remind you that satire is a protected form of free speech and allows me to do what i've done with their logo as a form of expression of opinion. There are tons more on flickr and around the Internet.

UPDATE 2:
Leaving Flickr?

UPDATE 3:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oC_sIgRCPqk

UPDATE 4:
"Your account has been reviewed as unsafe and NIPSA by Flickr staff. "

Unsafe, huh? How's that?? Stop screwing with me, flickr. Do you jobs properly and stop breaking your own rules.

LINKS:
http://schani.wordpress.com/2007/09/22/flickr-censorship-is-getting-sillier-every-day/#comment-8839
http://thomashawk.com/2007/06/update-on-censorship-problem-on-flickr.html
http://power-politics.blogspot.com/2007/06/flickr-censorship.html (thomas hawk again)
http://www.flickr.com/groups/flickrhythmix/discuss/72057594100649213/ flickr user getting sick of it...
http://q.queso.com/archives/002066
http://www.webpronews.com/blogtalk/2007/05/18/bbc-flickr-censors-comments the arrogant staff member who deleted my second dysamoria account because my photos apparently broke the rules... that they didn't break when they were in my first dysamoria account... as well as stewart butterfield showing his slip (arrogance slip, i mean)

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