there is always more, this time it's MINE

updated, 3:50am, December 27th, 2007, because i cannot sleep or rest. wonder why.

Kutztown University - The Truth - Working in hell - Revised 12-27-07 213pm.pdf

"If you come at me with any union shit, i'm gonna fight you on it."
- will jefferson, prior to signing my "end of probation period" at KU.

"Your work is fine, but frankly your attitude stinks."
- will jefferson, 3rd, January 2006

jefferson: "I don't want your attitude driving clients away..."
ME: "Wait a minute... Who have i driven away?"
jefferson: "I mean, you walk around here with a black cloud over your head.."
[i had been broken up by a 7-year relationship, starting to be screwed by a six month heart-rapist, and was being bullied by my boss, yet i remained quite kind, generous and light hearted around my clients]
ME: "Will, i'm really concerned about what you just said. Have i driven clients away?"
[more stammering and avoiding the direct question, which i had to repeat]
[long pause, tugging on his throat, jefferson not making eye contact, and then:]
jefferson: [stammering] "well, Jace, not YET!"
ME: [incredulous] "Not YET???" [i was being berated for something i had not done]
jefferson: "Don't you raise your voice at me" [as though i were his child]
- same date as above

i gave up a pre-approved vacation of about a week and three days because elise dicked out on me. i decided i might as well stay at work and help out during some transitions and, you know, be a team player. The response i got was a very quick and unexcited "Gee, thanks, we could really use you around here."

Was this even considered when jefferson was complaining about my attendance? Was this considered when i was staying late to finish work, help clients, clean up or otherwise take some pressure off of the work load (since he didn't like my "productivity").... never once mentioned. Not One Time.

"i saw you staring out the window at the stairwell..."
- Dean Margaret Devlin, after some social gathering that i was going back down stairs afterward. To which i ask: SO FUCKING WHAT?? Lets pass social and personality judgments on the guy who is taking a moment to look at what's outside. That IS the point of a window, right??

"i think that some of this is the depression."
- Devlin, after explaining my frustration with jefferson and her responding by referring to something i never told her nor anyone else. Depression is like the mark of satan, apparently.

"Frankly, i'm frustrated with BOTH of you."
- Dean Devlin, being "fair" after i confronted her about jefferson's continued abuse. Previously, she had the gall to put her arm around my shoulder and tell me to just keep quiet and keep doing my good work and all would be fine.

"Why is it that you were supportive of me earlier on but now the same things jefferson is saying are coming out of your own lips?"
- Me to Dean Devlin. No Response except an embarrassed and pissed look and body language that indicated the discussion was over. i said "This is obviously useless," and walked out of her office.

"Bullying isn't illegal"
- sharon picus, HR, when i told her about jefferson's abuse of me, when she sent me away to be inspected by SEAP, further playing jefferson's game of psychological harassment of me, to drive me out of the workplace.

Don't EVER try to be a team player. Not ever.